live life like there is no tomorrow, live life like everyday is our last day, live life and accept that we have to go through birth, sickness & death..
never wonder why, but believe in thing happens for a reason. I'm a true believer of to smile even death is near. I am only sad, cos I miss the happy moments. Seeing you suffer is more suffering for me, but again, I believe if I smile, I give you a little healing. So I smile, that doesn't mean I do not care..
Some quotes that I learned today :
Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.
Even death is not to be feared by one who has lived wisely.
The mind is everything. What you think you become.
There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills.
The whole secret of existence is to have no fear. Never fear what will become of you, depend on no one. Only the moment you reject all help are you freed.
We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.
3 most nostalgic moments that happens in the last 10 mths time , since the last blog entry :
1. Mum & Dad moved down to stay with me
2. I'm now married
3. Friendly has left us on 1 July 2011
Although it seems easy to write, but it was a rollercoaster emotional ride. happy & sad along the way.
good morning 3rd Oct...
It was a different morning yesterday. I had breakfast with my family at my crib, I had mum making bread toast for me, miss their presence so much.
I'm looking forward to fill my Sundays with some cooking! hehe
Watch "ah so" yesterday and got to learn some really easy peasy recipe. Gonna be cooking mince beef in tomato paste with mash potato.
Hopefully berjaya lar. =D
waking up feeling insecure is the worst feeling ever!
Spent almost my entire day watching "Parenthood" on Starworld. I just got hooked on it today, well was interested to watch it when I say promo runnings about "Parenthood" Marathon.
Why I like and got hooked on it? Cos, I love watching silly family issues but they are so real, so real that I actually think it will happen to me at some point of time. =p
But seriously while watching, I just have so much gratitude that I want to express to mum & dad. I have to thanks them a zillion times for their unconditional love. Its really not easy to become parent.
But, u know what, Ed and myself were some really good kids! Well maybe I hd a couple of cyber-bfs.. haha but mum never hav to worry about me getting hook up with boys at school and get pregnant at the age of 15! Of course, I did bang on doors, shouted at them before, I lied, but well... I'm just another TEENAGER back then.
I am absolutely a 100% Good daughter now. =D
Oh, I still remember, Dad's expression when I fers told them I am in a relationship with a boi (and he's ah Loy of course!) and I was what...22 back then! They were excited, yet so worried! haha...22 man! For some ang moh's they will most probably be worried, why the daughter started dating so late.
I cannot imagine when its my turn to be a mum. Looking at how kids now grow and stuff that they are exposed to, gosh... I totally kenot imagine. But, well....its too far to imagine. What I am thinking, gosh... parenthood! lol
But I am getting myself starting to "HEART" building our own little family...(putting aside marriage, which sounds so complicated), I totally totally love what we have build so far. I got a place where I come back and call it my "HOME". Home is getting to smell and expressing "US" as the owner. hehe.
This is the kind of simple life that all I ask for and maybe throwing in some travel plans every year. =D I'll be one happy bitch!
Have u ever wonder why u are involved in office politics?
I had given it a thought, and my conclusion is that - it's the people that u mix around with, that makes me feel there are office politics.
Maybe I am in ignorance, but seriously, I choose not to listen and I don't want to know. Cos I feel, by listening, it demotivates me. Its the same like polictics in the country, I had choosed not to read newspaper. I think I know who is the bad guys, but I don't really want to know any details, cos it makes me feel stressful and frustrating.
So my solution is : i pick who i listen to, and who to talk to. I avoid gossips. Somehow, my work life has become more peaceful and less stressful.
A while back, I was sitting on the couch, enjoying my time hugging my darling, while watching Tv. For a moment den, I was like "shit, I think I've fallen soooooo in love with our "space"!" haha.
I feel very grateful that we now have our own space. It's almost done now, perhaps a lil more to polish up. But I could feel the warm of our lil space.
The warm came from our love, our laughter that fills our lil space.
Love Love B-7-20!
Stop, start and continue doesn't just applies for work.
- dreaming and making dream happens
- To love and chase for love =D
I love Dad
Dad is around this whole week to help me on my house renovation.
I really enjoy having ah bah presence in the house.
I like the feeling of checking my watch, making sure I reach home by 7.30pm to bring ah bah out for dinner.
I enjoy thinking of where to bring him to eat, thinking of what he likes to eat, I just want to bring him to where he enjoys the food best.
I enjoyed today, some "us" time. I was teaching him how to operate the notebook that ah kor gave him.
No matter what is his age, I always feel protected when he is around.
I could feel him aging and he was telling me that he feel weaker than before. I wish I would have pat his back and give him a hug, but, being brought up in a traditional Chinese family, instead of giving him a pat as comfort, I just say "den try slow down, ok?" but in my heart I know he knew I really care for him. =D
Love you, dad (wish I could overcome the weird factor, and say this loud to you) =D
Gimme a...wooot woot....cos its Weekends! A day for me to get organize...
There is so much that I need to do today and tomorrow...
Saturday (in no order)
1) Done up my training notes - I seriously need to start train-up "J" to make my life easier and so that I can concentrate on crisis management (-_-)
2) I SERIOULY need to start plan for my UK Trip...blahdy hell, been slacking on this one. The plan currently stops at Scotland and England. hehe. Or I am just reluctant to plan, so I won't know how much mahney i need. hehe. Anyway, my bff hav promise to take care of me, so I am in no worry, but mercy! =D
3) House Chores! Shites! Lucky this is just a small lil 900sft apartment =D
4) Clean Up Tur Tur - Oppps, haven been bathing him/her for weeks! felt so sorry for Tur Tur
5) Friend's house warming later... =$ Cheras!
(maybe these are more den enuff to keep me busy for the day)
1) Urgh, need to done up my TV & Print schedule
2) Rest and Relax.. hehe watch Alvin and The Chipmunk..just bought the dvd yesterday
3) Sleep, Sleep, Sleep and watch TV!!!!!
I don't know why I want to list down what I am gonna do on my blog, but to a certain extend I think it helps me getting the list done. hehe...
Adioa ppl, gotta bathe the turtle now! =D