How I miss my younger days. CNY is always the-most-look-forward celebration. But now, it seems like hmmm...something is just missing. Friends gathering become lesser and in smaller groups. Then lesser relatives coming...not as much communication with the cousins. Lotsa lotsa things has change. And i really wonder why is this happening? Seriously, I felt really sad. And the one person that I most wanted to meet...didnt even show up. This is a year where CNY is celebrated with a weirdest feeling.
But this is the 1st year that Loy came to my house. I think my parents are happy....well, I am happie. Its my every year wish that he can come to my house for CNY...but felt bad pulak that I did not go to his place. hehhee. Everybody is asking me the same question...and my replied is "I do not hv the time...and its far" hehe. Maybe next year lar...pay them a visit. hehe.
Hmmm, so to be short....this year CNY is not as complete as the previous years. But anyhow, I do miss every second of it esp today (and I know why). Its always weird to get to see him again. I'm always torn in between miss or like or love or hate or just friends. I dunno if he has the same feeling..or maybe its just me. But this entire holidays I have been lookin forward to see him and I saw him. Ummm, then now I'm torn in between the questions that I ask myself again and again. But seriously, I think I have been thinking too much. There is never an answer to the questions. Sometimes, its better to have to felt this way.....missing someone can be kinda hard, but its a nice feeling. Never hope for more, but stay as friends for as long as I can. =0
Happy Chinese New Year!
